Why did it take so long to get to this point?

[chicken]

I don't understand why it took three months to get to this point, but this morning I woke up really missing my mother. It has been easy so far to just not think about her much, or to ruminate on how in many ways, we lost her a long time before she actually passed away, because she hasn't been the same person she was when we were kids for quite a long time.

But for some reason today I just wanted to hear the sound of her voice, however changed and annoying it could sometimes be. *sigh*